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Just my ponies hamming it up and couple of irises...

To cut or not to cut... Um, I don't want to. My apologies. I hope they don't mess up anyone's layout.



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Hmm, so a couple people mentioned a certain J's girlfriend watched golf for him. GOLF! And I was like, yeah. That's sweet. Which reminded me that my hubby watches Dressage for me. I get on these kicks where I watch dressage vids all day long sometimes, and he never tells me to turn them off. He even tries to comment. Though, after 12 years he still doesn't know a piaffe from a passage, which is too cute.

Anyway, this is dressage. And this is the good stuff. Now tell me, if you were not a horse person, would you sit through this for hours on end?

*hums* "The Things We Do For Love."
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Man, yesterday I was bumming, wasn't I? Wanna know how bad it was? It was so bad that watching this video made me cry like a baby.

Warning: People falling off horses a LOT.

Wherein I talk about life and realizing I've fallen off the horse, tl;dr )

You know what my journal says?

January 17, 2005:

Ration and logic are the tools by which we unknowingly allow our minds to cloud our hearts.

Enlightenment is simply giving yourself permission to believe what you already know is true.

It also says:

January 18, 2005:
Science does not preclude or negate faith. It merely offers the occasional opportunity to glimpse, in no uncertain terms, that which we have believed to be true all along.


A prayer is a rational mind's way of communicating with an irrational heart.

January 26, 2005:

It is a sad irony that the sheep depend on the shepherd for protection when it was the shepherd who made them helpless to begin with.

January 30, 2005:

Knowledge without experience is not learning, and experience without learning is not wisdom. Knowing that you do not know the answer to a question when life presents it to you is 90% of learning the answer. The wisest man knows only one thing for certain, and that is that he has more to learn.

January 31, 2005:

The biggest contributor to destiny is where you are and what you are doing right now.

February 4, 2005:

So much of our lives outside of Heaven are wrapped up in the mundane and the trivial. Yet, a great part of who we are as people is determined by what we do when what we do doesn't really seem to matter.

True peace is not calm. It is not mundane. It is the resolution of true conflict, not the avoidance or absence of strife.

Choosing to know the joy in everything you do, despite conflict... that is Heaven, and you don't spend a lifetime preparing to go there. You live there every day.


You know, there was a time when all of that made perfect sense.

It doesn't anymore.

I guess I have a lot more to learn.
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Man, it's the last day of my week long vacation from work, and I have accomplished nothing to speak of.

I feel... detached, like I'm not really here. You know that feeling, kinda like you're sitting in class and the teacher's asking a question, and you know every answer. You've got your hand waving in the air, but the teacher never calls on you, and when she does you realize you've forgotten the question, and you just slump down in your desk and go, "Uh, never mind." Kinda how I feel all the time lately.

I haven't slept for crap in days. It's starting to freak me out a little. I used to crash out about 9 a.m., get up about 2 or 3 in the afternoon, and then be good to go. Going to Chicago threw me all off whack. I started sleeping like 2 to 10 in the afternoon, which really sucked, cuz it meant I couldn't sleep at all before I went in to work at 6:30p.m. I figured I could get back on schedule on this week off, but instead, I've started sleeping like 2 to 5, and maybe 10 to 12. I just stare at the ceiling when I'm in bed, and feel like I'm about to doze off every second I'm not in bed. I can't concentrate on anything. Ugh, fail, fail, fail.

Cut for more rambling about life, LJ, writing, beta request, blah, blah, blah... )


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