End Panic Attack, Teeny Apology, and a thought on 4.13...

[ht_murray]

Looks like the issue I was having earlier was an LJ issue, and not me... Hallelujah, cuz man, I'd done everything but buy a new computer, and I can't afford a new computer. *quivers through aftereffects of withdrawal* Ahhh, this is much better.

So, now I'm way behind on commenting as y'all commented on my last couple of posts, and I was saving those to answer tonight, and y'all been posting today, and I haven't been able to get to you.... *glomps* Okay, so I suck. I get it. I shall fix that. Promise.

And I said I wasn't gonna do episode reactions anymore, because I hate having my squee harshed by reading them, and I don't want to accidentally harsh anyone else's, but I do have one thought about the episode that's kinda bugging me. And no, it's not negative about either boy. It's more about... well, the way something was addressed. Can't say more out here...



So, the thing that the blonde chick said to Dean after he came out of the closet with the other chic. (I'm terrible with names... Angela? Amanda? Had to be Amanda, cuz Angela would just be too funny considering...) Anyway, um, she was pissed. I got that. And he was a horn dog. I got that. (Although, you and I understand he probably did that to avoid getting too attached to blonde chick.)

So, yeah, he totally deserved to get reamed out in front of the whole school.

But here's the thing... She didn't call him a horn dog, or a whoring man-slut, she called him a scared, lonely little boy. Um, yeah, that's the truth, but did that REALLY have to be the statement she used to turn the entire school against him? Is it really cool to ostracize someone for being damaged?

Personally, I'd have kicked him in the plums, grabbed him by the ear and dragged him off somewhere to make it up to me, but then I lurves him, LOL.

It's just, he tries to hide that stuff, so he already thinks it's something to be ashamed of (not a lot of actual coping going on there), and way to just pour salt in it, ya know? Who needs Hell when you can walk around with festering wounds every day of your life?

Comments

[sadelyrate.livejournal.com]

That whole exchange seemed somehow surreal to me. Like it's not really how it happened, just how it 'felt' like: she said something that served as a blow to his ego, and he came back with something he wanted to be true, wanted the world to acknowledge.

But it was rather... sudden. To think Dean would let some...girl of the week get close enough to see all that? To see what he's really like? Doesn't ring true. Maybe he was still learning that, though.
One blow like that too many, and no wonder he was so scared of telling Cassie the truth. Of being honest with anyone outside of his family, and perhaps, the hunter community.

This ep needs some thinking.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I like the idea of it being Dean's perception of what happened. It's hard to tell, sometimes, with the way scenes are shot and written, whether it's intended to be a specific character's perception without going for the nausea-inducing first person camera angles. The focus on Dean's lips (though I'm not complaining about that, lol) sorta does lend one to believe that it was almost a waking dream for him. While I think it actually happened that way, maybe it's our own attachment to Dean that makes it seem surreal, a shared nightmare.

And strangely enough, the whole "girl of the week gets close enough to see all that" thing has been done so many times in fic. (I think I did it, too, but my chick was definitely psychic, lol.) It's possible I saw it coming and was expecting something fluffier and more "ficcish" instead of focusing on what a Hell high school really is.

The saddest thing about that part where he's saying, "But I'm a hero," is that, yeah, she pointed out one thing about him to the world, but she totally missed this whole other part, and he's in no position to share it. He's got to keep his good deeds as secret as his demons. That's harsh.

Much more thinking needed on this episode, but I sometimes get lazy with that part and just wait for the show to tell me.