Lalalalalala...

[ht_murray]

I'm sure there was a reason I opened this post box, but now I cannot remember what it was. LOL. It's because I have not slept yet. *sigh*

Um, so, we're probably actually going to finish our bigbang draft. It's over 17000 words now, but I really do not know how it ends. It wants to be happy, happy death!fic, and I do not DO death fic, even if if it is happy, happy, ya know?. Anyway, anyone on my filter might actually get a real summary and some decent snippets come next weekend. *crosses fingers*



So, I like the episode. I'm overall not in a happy place when watching the show, just because the angst makes me a little sick inside, but I LOVE every episode. *nods* I'm so happy to see things moving forward at a decent clip.

That being said, I realize people had "issues" with this week's epi. I really didn't. I've never really give much thought to John except what he means to Dean. (and to Sam, of course.) So, yeah, no love or hate for him, just your average frustration.

Anyway, I said to hubby who watched the episode in real time, whereas I had to watch it recorded, (stupid work) that people were really feeling this episode ruined John. He said, "Why?" *honest puzzlement* I said, because of how he treated Adam, blah, blah. And hubby, made of infinite wisdom (except when he says Sam is right, in which case, I chase him out of the room) said, "Well, maybe he learned from his mistakes with Dean and Sam and didn't want to make them with Adam."

I can live with that. :)


I'm using Firefox. Safari was taking so long to load and crashing my comp if I stayed online more than a few hours. I know! Just get off line, stupid! But whatever. I have always had trouble with Firefox dumping my add-ons and revertng back to default every time I rebooted. But so far so good, and might I say, I like the LJ add-ons. But overall, I still hate the way Firefox LOOKS. Is there any way to get a decent looking font that doesn't look all scraggly and washed out?

It's working really well, though. *knocks on wood*

I've come to decision on Dreamwidth. I signed up for my OpenID and verified my email. If they actually do give invite codes to everyone with a verified email on the 30th, then I will take a look around and probably open an account.(No way in hell I'm paying for one.) But it won't be a fandom journal. It won't have this username. I won't be crossposting everything in twenty places. Nor diverting comments over there. Y'all will probably not even see me. I'm thinking of life after fandom. I don't intend on joining any other fandoms, and when this one peters out, I will happily be fandom-less. (I'm kinda addicted to The Deadliest Catch, but I don't think it has a fandom, and if it does I don't want to know. It's really the only other show I watch besides Ghost Hunters and sometimes American Idol.)

I just do not see the point of going somewhere else to do what I already do here. I just don't. And while the idea of really huge posting limits for comments strikes me as good, I don't get the need to have a 50,000 word posting limit for an entry. Can people really read 50000 words in one sitting? Don't they lose their places? I just... yeah, 10,000 words in a story part are more than enough, and very convenient for actually conducting my life between chapters.

So, there's that. If I open an account, it will probably be somehow related to my penname, and it will be one of those sad little blogs with no comments on it, and I'm fine with that. LOL.

Anywho, now I need to shower or something, because Dan's gonna expect me to go grocery shopping seeing as how I'm not sleeping... I hate the grocery store. Stealing my monies! :(

OH, Oh, oh, oh, one more thing. So, I was doing my Jari Love, "Ripped" DVD, which I haven't in awhile, and I laughed when Jared asked Gaylene if she watched what she ate, and Gaylene said, "I watch it as it goes into my mouth." Ahh, I forgot how that DVD makes me laugh. You know, Jari Love is Canadian, I think, and I watched that DVD like ten times, before I realized that, when she said, "Good on ya," she wasn't complimenting some chick named Anya who was lurking just off camera. *is done amusing myself. Sorry there's so much showing outside a cut, but I only wanted to cut the epi stuff, and yes, multiple cuts work, but you can still see what's behind one when you click another, so I don't really do that very often.

P.S. Where the Hell is the PREVIEW button on the post box?!! Ah, the joys of testing a new browser.
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Comments

[angels3.livejournal.com]

I loved the episode even though it made me sad that the boys never actually got to meet Adam and Adam never knew he had brothers.

It pissed me off at John though. I mean he saw how much it meant to Adam to do those father/son things but he couldn't ever do that for Dean or Sam. I realize he was trying to fix what he messed up with them through Adam but he should have been trying to mend some bridges on the other side.

I don't do death fics like at all *wails* Here you are writing one so now what am I going to do.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

I do totally get why people are frustrated with John. I won't say pissed, and I don't really feel any need to defend him. I just can see how he did try to do the right thing with Adam. Sam's demon blood most likely played some role in how he dealt with Sam and Dean, but I'm not gonna say that's an excuse, especially since we don't really know how long he knew about that.

Epi made me sad, too, but I did still love it.

We're really trying to write it as not a deathfic, though I fear it may have to be one of those with an alternate ending, because it feels like it needs to be death fic. Le sigh.

[angels3.livejournal.com]

I don't think he found that out until much later. I've never been a very strong John fan and I've heard we're going to get some insight on his parenting in one of these last episodes. I just wish he'd have tried before the end of his life ya know.

Make sure to tag it happy ending there was another stoy someone was doing but it was a death fic and I just die inside when I read those but apparently they have an alternate ending too so now I can read it :)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I tend to think he didn't know about the demon blood until later, either, but if he's only known Adam for the last six years or so, then it's possible he knew about the demon blood then, and maybe that's why he didn't make the effort to fix what he did to Sam and Dean. But again, I don't know. I just figure two wrongs doesn't make a right, so at least he tried with Adam, and to me that says he at least knew he didn't do right by Sam and Dean. Half the battle is admitting the problem, right?

And we're gonna try for a happy ending. I have seen more death fic popping up lately, and I don't even read fic much, so for me to notice, it has to be popping up. I don't like death fic and dont' read them, but I do understand how writers feel like it's the best ending for the story. That's what I'm struggling with at the moment. *crosses fingers*