Haha, I'm sooo screwed.

[ht_murray]

Now, I'm not gonna complain about being productive. I'm actually pretty tickled with myself. Since I posted a couple days ago about all the hundred billionty stories I have rolling around in my head, I've spent the last three days hashing out the better part of three really long involved stories. This is rare for me, people. I almost always go into a story with just a vague theme, some idea what I want to do with character development, and hope the road opens before me. But since I have so many working at the same time, I knew I'd lose them if I didn't do something with them ASAP.

Helps that I managed to get Tracer to go in with me on one as a new screenwriting project, and my super secret special friend volunteered to cowrite another.(I promised to keep it Gen, lol.) Having someone else excited about my ideas is strong motivation to get them worked out. So, Wednesday morning when I got off work, instead of going to bed, I spent most of the morning working the script out with Tracer. Snuck in a few hours of sleep in the afternoon then got back on IM with Tracer Wednesday night.

Yesterday morning, I hammered out a tentative synopsis and fired it off to my super secret friend (I forgot to ask her if it was okay to mention her name. lol.) Then got on IM with her most of the afternoon, snagged a couple hours of sleep between SPN and Jimmy Kimmel, then talked over our script til after 1 a.m. on IM again. Slept for a few hourse. Then got up to feed the horses, intended to go right back to bed, swore not to check my email or my flist, but ooooh no. I did anyway. Then, I couldn't sleep, so I hammered out a rough outline for the Overboard rewrite between answering emails. Another 1500 plus words.

So, in the last three days, I've written probably six thousand words, and none of them have been actual fic. I totally fail. Not only that, but I've not been back to sleep since I got up this morning, and I have to leave for work in ten minutes.

Again... I'm so screwed.

But mighty fulfilled. I feel guilty as hell for taking so long with my WIPs, but it's nice to have so many places to go when I get stumped on something else.

If you don't hear from me. It means I've either buried myself in fic or died. No worries either way. LOL.

Comments

[unplugged32.livejournal.com]

So much fic, so little time!! Can't wait to read everything:)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Dude, on the one hand I feel like such a failure, cuz nothing is finished, and on the other, I'm like..ooooh, so many sandboxes to play in! LOL.

[not-refined.livejournal.com]

YAY for productivity! *HUGS* That's AWESOME even if it results in not enough sleep.

I am on top of the world right now, so don't you dare go and die. Just bury yourself in fic. *g*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Ooh, you're on top of the world? Is there a specific reason for this? Do tell!

[not-refined.livejournal.com]

Oh it's nothing - pretty silly, I guess. But I finished a fic last week, posted it a couple of days ago and I don't know but... it feels like a kind of turning point? Inside me? I feel different for writing it, like I have sometimes before, but MORE. I can't really explain it, but I spend a lot of time feeling incredibly inadequate, like I can keep writing on and on and no one's going to really give a crap but suddenly it's almost like that doesn't matter to me. I'm CONTENT knowing that I can produce something that makes me feel so touched and wonderful.

I don't know. I'm rambling. And GOD, I just read this comment back and... the ego has landed or what? :P

Are you sorry you asked now? ^_^

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

No, I'm not sorry I asked, only sorry I haven't read this masterpiece. Now, I know to go looking for it. If I hadn't asked, I'd never know. LOL.

[not-refined.livejournal.com]

LOL, "masterpiece" is DEFINITELY a generous word but I want to SNUGGLE you to pieces. *g* I'll probably be back to my usual, neurotic, insecure, crazy-ass self in a few days, hehe :)

But if you do read it, I hope you enjoy. Or at least that it doesn't traumatize you!

[heather03nmg.livejournal.com]

*cough SIn Nombre cough*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Hehe, I know. I thought I had it all figured out, but Tree convinced me to use a different, more painful medical procedure, so now I'm doing a little more rewriting. Don't worry. I haven't forgotten. I updated Cracked. That one's pretty good, lol.

[vanae.livejournal.com]

Screwed but pretty awesome I'd say! Wow, you're makng me lose my breathe... good thing that you're enjoying it! Though, do remember to sleep and stuff. T'is important ;)

Also, totally excited about all the fic, yay! S'gonna be great, I'm sure.

[vanae.livejournal.com]

And don't you dare die!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

I'll try not to. Work seems pretty set on finishing me off if the ficcing doesn't. LOL.

[redheadforever.livejournal.com]

GO GO GO...

And bring us back something good to read!

Red

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

LOL, I'm working on it! *smooshes*

[sams1ra.livejournal.com]

Squee! You're writing! Which means there's going to be fic for me to read!! (You did say there's gen! I saw it! \0/)
Way to go, girl!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Haha, one is definitely Gen. chocca2 made me promise. LOL. I think you'll like it, but it's pretty dark.

♥

[chocca2.livejournal.com]

lol I'm still hyped from our convo! \o/ Hee, yes of course you can mention me, silly. I'm also really excited to be working with you! *dances* Um, yeah, i got your mail and will rely back soon =)

You takecare, GET SOME SLEEP, girl! lol I is needing you alive!

Re: ♥

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Hee! I"m glad you're hyped. I got more hyped when I was typing up the notes. I guess you noticed I added in a little more detail, lol. This is gonna be so awesome. I just hope people can get past the obvious darkness of it. So needs a happy ending, lol. I wouldn't want it to be like Brokeback Mountain where everyone's miserable for the whole movie and they never get fixed. Sob!

[9thof9.livejournal.com]

I decided to go back one more page on my flist before signing off. I'm glad I did since I saw this post.

Good for you darlin'. I'm glad you got so much done and are feeling good about it. You deserve to feel good a change.

I lurvs ya and I miss ya!

[fufaraw]

The words, "Elk Snout" will appear in the Overboard fic, yes? Not an Overboard without 'em.