So, hypothetically speaking...

[ht_murray]

Someone who shall remain anonymous, LOL, unless she doesn't want to, helped me remember why I'm here in the first place.

Jensen, Jensen, Jensen, Jensen. Glee!

Just saw ze_pink_lady's vid of his Asylum panel where he talks about Danneel and Icarus and now I have the stupidest grin on my face and the urge to write Jensen/Danneel, which is insane because I don't write Het. Okay, so I write it, but I don't post it, and I don't read it, because there are just too many squicks in Het for me to chance it.

But the point is, I'm a Jensen fangirl. Not a Supernatural fangirl. I get very little squee out of reading SPN related posts anymore. Which makes me sad, because I still love the show dearly, but I don't really care to hear anyone else's take on it. At this point, I've been here since early in season 1, and I can pretty accurately predict how certain people are going to respond to certain things, and it's all really, really tiresome. Especially when it affects the way I view the show.

Problem is,this is a fandom journal, has always been a fandom journal, and everyone I know here with exception of a few, I met through fandom. So, I can't just NOT be exposed to it.

But if, hypothetically speaking, I wanted to lessen the fandom effect and focus more on my Jensen fangirling, and now, my Adam Lambert fangirling, where would I go? What sites do Jensen fangirls watch, anyway? I mean, I didn't have a computer back in my Dark Angel days, so when I did get one, Jensen was already on Supernatural, so it was easiest to get my Jensen fix by following Supernatural posts and whatnot. But surely there is a Jensen fandom outside of Supernatural? With like, sites and communities and whatnot? Anyone? Anyone?

Help a girl out. Please? *puppy face*

And this is not to say that I don't like Jared or Misha. I just want to be able to focus on Jensen and not feel like I have to make consolations to anyone else just because they share a credential. (Besides, Misha already knows he's awesome, so that takes 90% of the fun out of fangirling him. LOL.)

Hmm, I dunno. This post might bring in some haters, I suppose. Should I be worried? Nah. Not locking.

All that being said, I'm not going anywhere, just trying to be more selective about what I entertain myself with online. And I realized I haven't got many options since all my online business is SPN business. I need to change that. Plus, I have too many WIPs to leave now. :P

So, in case you missed it. This is a call for links. Also, because I am stupid, what is a Google alert, and how can I get some?

Bigbang question post coming up shortly. ;)

Comments

[angels3.livejournal.com]

There used to be a site called Nuns with Pens and it was mostly DA stuff but I don't know if it's still around anymore.

http://nunswithpens.hyperboards.com/index.php?

Problem is it was all HET if I remember correctly. This was my first site ever to read fan fic then I hit ff and then the slash archive and finally lj.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Hmm, yep, I've heard of that. I'm a little afraid of Het, but maybe I need to explore my options, LOL.

Thank you vurrry much. ♥

[angels3.livejournal.com]

You're welcome. There were some really great stories on there if you'd like me to find which authors I'd be glad to. You know how it is where there's good, great, excellent and fucking fantastic.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Ooh, well, if you're not like, busy or anything. I'm about to make a short bigbang post and then turn off my internets, so whenever you get the urge that would be great!

[angels3.livejournal.com]

Sorry it took me awhile. I had a split shift at work today and tomorrow for that matter so I've been gone forever. You may have to join the forum though I'm not sure.

http://www.geocities.com/nunalexis/EE_chapter1.htm

That was one the other one I wanted to link you to has apparently been pulled. I hadn't realized it's been three years since I read over there.

[chemm80]

I checked my porn stash to rec you some Jensen/Daneel, but found that most of it was either J2/Daneel or J2/Daneel/Genevieve. The one that was just them looked a little too...moist...for your tastes, if I'm not mistaken. :D

Guess I'm not as much of a het-lovin' pervert as I thought. *grins*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

LOL, yeah, I think I read one Jensen/Danneel since I've been in this fandom, and it was all oral sex, and that's the kind that squicks me the most. Isn't that ironic? I can read blowjob fic without batting an eyelash, but throw in a female and bodily functions of the female persuasion, and my mouth does the down-turned, pinched in, wrinkled chin, eeeeewwwww thing. I totally fail at being a woman.

[chemm80]

We could be talking about the same story, actually.

...and it was all oral sex, and that's the kind that squicks me the most.

Personally, I'm all over that. In fact, I belong to a com named cunnilingusfic, LOL. *waits for Tracy to stop gagging* Why are we friends, again?

Oh, that's right. Because you are smart and funny and adorable and AWESOME.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Hahahahaaaaa! Even that word squicks me. You know, it might have something to do with Sex Ed in school. I remember our school got national recognition for having one of the best Sex Education programs available in a public school. And I'll never forget bringing home this list of terms I had to study for a test, and things like anal sex and oral sex were on there... with definitions. My dad's girlfriend read it, and let me tell you this is a woman who uses cock and pussy as frequently as AND and THE, and she was blushing as she read it. She said straight out that those were terms she had to learn from magazines you buy in brown paper bags.

I mean, totally didn't surprise me that knew the words, but then I had the unfortunate mental image of her engaging in these acts with my Dad and the whole thing has been a squickfest ever since. Just don't wanna go there. Bleh.

Hehe, but I'll take smart and funny even if I fail at being woman. I haz no roar.

:P

[x5vale.livejournal.com]

Yep it is and yes there is het, some good one if I can say so :)

[angels3.livejournal.com]

There were several stories that stood out. I loved my time there.

[unplugged32.livejournal.com]

Jensen was very excitedly talking about his dog and Daneel and he was thrilled that people cheered for her. My kids got her a gift as well as one for Jensen and he went nuts over that, thought it was so sweet, must have thanked them like 20 times. They did the same for Jared and whoever his g/f is (Gen possibly?) and he was amazed as well but Jensen was really grateful. Jensen is like a wide-eyed little boy in general. I'm not fooled by those brief moments where he does stuff like dancing on stage (for like 10 seconds tops btw) or yells out 'suck it' to someone who says Sam is cooler because he's mostly a sweet, slightly-awkward, wide-eyed little boy. Jared is alot more comfortable with himself and his fans and he is funny and adorkable and made me smile.

Oh and for the record?? Despite my J2 fic obsession, IMHO, there is no way that these boys are doin' it:) The testosterone in the room?? It was intoxicating;) Their relationship? It's obviously very close, they are so comfortable with each other, speak for each other (Jared and I, Jensen and I etc) and I suspect very sam-dean co-dependent on each other but that's where it ends. Again, that's MHO but it is my opinion regardless:)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

LOL. I'm completely with you on all counts. Fandom scares me with their obsessive denial sometimes. I mean, fanfic is about writing fantasy not reality. People need to step away from the computer sometimes and take a breath of fresh air.

And Jensen is so adorable. I need more of him. Glee! I like my boys a little more awkward. It's like the difference between nude and scantily-clad. I'd prefer a little bit left to the imagination. That makes them intriguing to me. *smishes you*

ETA: Whoever said that about Sam must've missed all of season 4, LOL.

[unplugged32.livejournal.com]

Jensen said 'suck it' to a fan who argued a point with respect to who's killed more demons etc etc. You can read a detailed account at ze_pink_lady's lj if I'm not mistaken, but it was meant to be funny, not offensive and so Jensen's 'suck it' was also meant to be funny, etc etc. We had a really good laugh at the whole exchange.

Also, it's impossible for either of them to tell a story that doesn't include the other NOT because of their big, gay love but because they are TOGETHER 24/7. But regardless, it really does make my heart flutter when they refer to things they do together, like cry at the same movies, that their DOGS are best friends and other ridiculous things like that because I will always remember the Gillian A/David D tension on the X-files and it really took away from how I felt about the actors and the show. It just seemed so horribly childish that they couldn't control their snarking about each other, you know?

[chemm80]

I watched them really closely in LA and got that same vibe, both with Jensen being sweet and shy, and about the boys being like brothers, not lovers. I mean, I have three sons and I watch them interact and it's very similar. I can't remember whose journal I saw it on, but this person had almost a full-page entry detailing all the things she likes to imagine the Js do, how they're all in love and lust with each other. Then at the end she said something like, "But that's my fantasy world. In real life, I suspect that two guys who feel comfortable enough to climb all over each other, touch each other in public that way, are probably so straight you could use them as rulers." I think that says it pretty well.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

I agree completely. I mean, I write a lot of slash pairing them as a couple, but I'd be writing the slash anyway, and they inspire me, so why wouldn't I write it about them. That doesn't mean I believe it. I mean, why after all the sweating and pondering and worrying over every word would I actually think it's fact and not fiction? Fact would be a lot easier to write, would't it?

[chemm80]

...and they inspire me, so why wouldn't I write it about them.

That's the way I feel about SPN and writing in general. It made me want to write again, for the first time in years.

...would I actually think it's fact and not fiction? Fact would be a lot easier to write, would't it?

On the other hand, (apparently I'm just full of unattributed, bastardized quotes this morning, lol) after there was some furor over some J2 sighting or other--might have been them going to the bathroom together in Vancouver--another girl said, "Someone asked me why I write RPS and I said, 'Are you kidding me? That shit writes itself!'" :D

[unplugged32.livejournal.com]

Well said. If they actually were doin' it, they'd be reeeeaaaal careful to keep their distance, wouldn't you think?

Also, I'll never do another Con but not for the same reasons you'd mentioned way back. I'd never do it again because it's just toooooo stressful and because some fans are just horrible, snarky, obnoxious and pushy and that makes it all the more exhausting. And I have a whole new respect for J2 because they really put up with alot of CRAP. Regardless of how much they're getting paid, you could see the strain on their faces as it started to wind down. It had nothing to do with being 'pissed off' like so people mentioned it was simply exhaustion. The event was organized horribly and if we were wrecked imagine how the boys felt.

[chemm80]

Oh, I totally agree with all of this. The term "con organizer" is an oxymoron, with emphasis on the "moron". *rolls eyes*

LA was like you're describing here. My first con, in Dallas, was so much smaller and more relaxed, to the extent that we actually hung out in the hotel bar with the supporting cast and Steve Carlson. But LA was a much larger venue and poorly organized and it was like being herded around like cattle all weekend. I felt bad for all the "guests" too, really, especially Misha and the Js. And most of the fans were respectful, but I kept seeing us all from the actors' point of view and I didn't like what I saw. I mean, they obviously don't want to spend their weekends putting their arms around a thousand strangers and smiling, or getting writer's cramp from signing a bajillion autographs. I'm glad I went to a couple, but never again.

[unplugged32.livejournal.com]

Ha!! Loved that...oxymoron, moron, made my day!!

[not-refined.livejournal.com]

JENSEN JENSEN JENSEN! I am glad you were reminded of your glee! :D :D :D

Eeeeee Jensen/Danneel. I wrote some ages ago and never finished or posted it. I may do that sometime soon. I wuv Danneel to pieces and obviously the only way to show that is by being a creepy fangirl ^_^ I love het, but I feel like fandom is a weird place where het is a squick in itself? IDK.

I LOVE YOU. I am glad you decided not to vanish. 'Cause I would be saaaaad and besides, you have to stay here with me, the other girl who continually thinks about vanishing and then doesn't because HELLO, so many WIPs :P

Holy crap, can you tell I'm full of sparkles just for a change?! \o/

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Well, let's be honest, here. I could never leave because I could not live without YOU and all your adorable wonderful glorious cute!

I'd read het if you posted it... I think. But yes, it's a squick in itself, which is sad. It's funny, because I read as many smutty romance novels as the next girl when I was in school, so I don't think it's the HET factor so much as it's the BAD factor. Fanfiction has totally ruined me and raised my expectations of writing to a point where I'm very choosy and I have a hard time finding Het that's as well written as most of the slash I read. How sad is that?

I love your sparkles. Will they sparkling onto a page anytime soon, now that school is over?

[not-refined.livejournal.com]

Yes, I am quite clearly the best reason not to leave *g*

LOL, of course I went back and looked at my Jensen/Danneel fic and it turned out to be slightly less straightforward than I remember it being. So I don't even know! You have to remember, though, when I write het it's all smooshy and romantic because pure porn makes my guts clench most of the time.

I'm a prude like that. But there is something about het that appeals to the old fashioned gal in me... I just love it when the guy gets the girl, sweeps her up out of harm's way and is proud to have her there. Obviously this is why I'm not a feminist!

YES. Hopefully my sparkles and joy will be translated onto paper (or screen) sometime soon, if my focus stops being shot to hell. I'm like a five year old who got shitfaced on sugar at the moment.

[i-o-r-h-a-e-l.livejournal.com]

Psst...

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/35799155.html

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

LOL, like we needed pics to know THAT. Bwahahahaha!

But wait, we did need pics. Cuz they're so purty and makes us SMILES. Glee! Thankees, love. I enjoyed that muchly.

[kjfri.livejournal.com]

Yes, hello! you have many WIPs *cough*sin nombre*cough* that you owe us no-talent lurkers, so don't you even think about disappearing.

I consider myself lucky because I keep my lj so freakin simple, almost too simple for some people, I'm sure. But in doing that, I also keep the drama way-way down. I rarely even know what gets fandom up in a tizzy. I keep just a few friends because let's be honest, I can't possibly handle too many without getting overwhelmed. I'm here because of the amazing talent like yours, and for pics & happy stories of the boys that I would never get otherwise. So, I say, cut bait and lose the negative-nelly's on your list and stick with us happy-go-lucky few. and get back to those WIPs (which is so weird because I was just thinking about your fic Double Blind this morning on my way to work, and was thinking I might just reread what you have there...I may be a minority, but I was interested in what you were doing with it.) Anyway, can't wait to see the BIG BANG!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Haha, you know I was just thinking about Sin Nombre, too. I think it's still in a zip folder I downloaded onto this comp from my old one. The sad thing about that story is that some one PMed me right after I posted the last chapter and said they really hoped I was going to finish it, and I assured her it was all almost completely written. And it IS. Has been since before I started posting it, but I just... I'm a freaking perfectionist, and if I can't do something profound with the ending of a story, I just have to sit and wait for something profound to come to me. And nothing is. When it does, you will know, because a huge post will show up. I definitely plan to make the next chapter the last one.

And you're not in a minority at all. I've had SO MANY pokes about Double Blind it isn't even funny. Which is ironic, because I lost interest in writing it because the readership seemed to be declining with every post. Now I mostly think of it as potential seed for an original novel. I just have to figure out how I'd de-SPN-ize it.

You're smart staying away from the drama. Don't ever change. MWAH!

[kjfri.livejournal.com]

That was probably me that PM'd you, I'm a persistent little fic-stalker.

[ysbail.livejournal.com]

I can understand you wanting to distance yourself from SPN fandom - but Jensen fandom is forever, as far as I'm concerned.

I was recently asked what I'd do once SPN finished and I said I'd simply watch whatever the boys ('cause yeah, Jared too) were doing next ...

Oh, and by the way, you know I loves ya - and I'd nudge you about 'Double Blind' too if I thought it would make any difference whatsoever *g*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Jensen fandom IS forever, because I still believe he's going to make a name for himself way beyond these unknown network television shows.

Heh, Double Blind. Believe me, it's never out of my mind completely. I come back to it quite frequently, so you never know. Though, with the current state of SPN canon, I'm not sure I could work with the original plot.

[astri13.livejournal.com]

Just saw [info]ze_pink_lady's vid of his Asylum panel where he talks about Danneel and Icarus and now I have the stupidest grin on my face

The Icarus story was so cute and the way he told it, awwww. At first the indignation to have a fluffly white dog instead of a big, manly one and then falling in love with the furball regardless. He was so excited when he pulled out his phone and tried to show us a picture of him.

I couldn't help but giggle, though, because there is a RPS story where Jensen gets turned into a little fluffy dog and Harley and Sadie want to play with him.

Besides, Misha already knows he's awesome, so that takes 90% of the fun out of fangirling him. LOL.

Hehe. After seeing him at Asylum, I would never want to go toe-to-toe with him, though, when it comes to verbal sparring. I mean, I can be very sarcastic and snarky but oh my god, he would probably still eat me alive. *g*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Haha, yeah, Misha scares me. I love him, but I told someone else that it's like he's playing peekaboo with a bunch of little kids. Everything he says, no matter how arbitrary gets squeeflailomg. Reminds me of some movie I saw where they were reading to a baby out of a sports column or something and said, "It doesn't matter what you say, just how you say it." I'm totally entertained by the man and love what he's brought to the show, but I can't help but feel talked down to a little bit. Every time I see him at one of these things, the shiny grows a little dimmer for me. And that makes me sad.

Haha, I've never heard of that story. It sounds funny as heck.

[x5vale.livejournal.com]

Yes there are a lot of JA fan sites outside the fandom. I knew some of them since the DA days.

Jensenacklesfans.com and jraunlimited.com are among the best.

For fanfictions and some good chat, there is Nuns with pens. We used to call us the Nuns of Jensen :)

You can google them :)

ETA
Glad you stated you are around for Jensen. I am too :))

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Ooh, thank you. I think you already saw that angels3 linked me to nunswithpens. I'd actually heard of that group before, just never looked it up.

I also need to check out those other sites. I've heard of them, but LJ is so convenient. I need to find a way to watch them from here. LOL. I think I want too much. *is embarrassed*

And yes. It's always been about Jensen for me. I think sometimes I forget to drive that home and then end up in uncomfortable situations. Maybe if I shouted it from the rooftops, I'd be better off, but then I'd be one of those crazy fangirls. LOL. Can't win for losing, I guess.:P

*squishes*

[x5vale.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[calamitycrow.livejournal.com]

one other me and the human will toss into the ring is the yahoo group: Jensen_Dean_Addicts.

The group names says it all and the have avid Jensen fans who pretty much post anything that's being put on Jensen including a lot of livejournal and interview links. My human finds that getting the daily digest is just so so much easier than trolling through insanity of SPN fandom. (and we don't mean that in good way....)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank YOU! That sounds uber perfect. I'm already member of a couple of Yahoo groups through Torquere press, and I love how those groups work. So much easier to have the spam in my mailbox than have to sift through crap to find the gems. I love you so much right now. *smoosh*

[calamitycrow.livejournal.com]

(kitty smishes you back) ur welcome! this kitty must encourage ALL humanz to purr over The Pretty. (aka JRA)

[sarahk-63.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the link to the yahoo group for Jensen...is in a happy place. And thanks to tru_faith for posting this subject in the first place. :D

[tabularassa.livejournal.com]

JENSEN FTW! <3

[country_bee.livejournal.com]

I have no links to add. :( but I'm a Jensen fangirl. Not a Supernatural fangirl. THIS! I love SPN I do! but make me chose, and Jensen will always come first! I know I'll follow Jensen long after SPN is just a memory, but I can't say the same for Jared, Misha, or even Kripke. Probably makes me a bad fan but the only reason I ever even checked out SPN was for Jensen. *nods*

[vanae.livejournal.com]

Hee, I love the way you fangirl Jensen. You do it in this highly appreciative and squeeish yet calm and collected manner. Respectful, I think that’s it. I dig it.
I think I’ve progressed into a full-on Jensen Ackles fangirl too. Not so much in an “omg you’re hot and sexy and I’ll scream and cry if I meet you” way as in a “I like your work, I love the way you portray yourself, I respect you and I have this wish for you to get the best in life… also, you’re attractive as hell. Bonus!” way. On that note, Jensen and Danneel are ♥

I just want to be able to focus on Jensen and not feel like I have to make consolations to anyone else just because they share a credential.

One thing that has always bothered me a little is when you squee about one of them you have to state your love for the other one as well. Otherwise there’s a high chance that you’ll be considered a ‘hater’. I don’t know, I like to be able to say “I love Dean!” or “I love Jensen” without having to add the “… but I love x too, of course”.

Anyway, I’m sorry that SPN as a fandom has lost its shiny glow (not that it’s been very pretty lately). And please continue your Adam squee here. You’re the only one I know who is about Adam for Adam and not so much Kradam. It makes me feel less alone when you squee!