Light, PG, Sam/Dean(non-explicit wincest), AntiChrist!Sam AU

[ht_murray]

Title: Light
Author: tru_faith_lost
Rating: PG
Pairing: AntiChrist!Sam/Dean
Summary: Too short for a summary really, just a random ficlet about what Sam would do if he had all the power in the world.
Disclaimer: Yeah, no buckazoids, Roger Wilco. I be lowly space janitor. You're welcome to my mops.
A/N: Whattaya know? I got nothing to say except Boo! Hiss! to everyone on my f-list who didn't warn me about the end of Brokeback Mountain. I don't do unhappy endings...Not. Ever. So read in good faith, kind reader.


Light

Dean washes the car on Sundays, has ever since Sam can remember, since the car was Dad’s and rainy Sundays were spent driving to the next hunt, Dean telling the rain to, “Stop. Start. Stop,” while Sam giggled in amazement. Sam doesn’t remember how old he was when he realized Dean could only control the rain when they went under an overpass, doesn’t remember the last time he giggled in amazement either.

Pastor Jim always said rain on Sunday was Heaven weeping.

Since Sam broke the deal, it rains every Sunday, but Dean still washes the car.

And Sam watches, rainwater dripping down the long strands of his bangs and clinging to his eyelashes. He doesn’t blink, likes the ripple effect of waves in his vision as he oversees Dean in his weekly labor of love--Dean with sheen of sweat glistening on his brow, damp t-shirt clinging to his back. Sam thinks it’s like seeing his brother new again, the way he saw him when Dean could part the sea of clouds with just a word, just for Sam.

Sam doesn’t mind waiting, could watch Dean like this forever, would if Dean asked. Dean would never ask, though. Instead, he catches Sam’s eyes for a second, rainbows dancing between them in the mist, and bites his lip to keep from smiling too hard. That doesn’t stop the blush spreading up his cheeks, across his freckles and into his sweat-darkened hair. The sun shines all the brighter for the appreciation.

When the last spot of wax has baked and hardened, been buffed to a sheen that mimics the glint in Dean’s eyes, Dean joins Sam in the rain, lets his little brother rinse the caked dust from his shoulders, kiss the salt from his neck.

The first hint of goosebumps along Dean’s arms, and the sun shines again.

Heaven might weep around them, but as long as Dean looks at him like this, all grace, and wonder, and alive, the sun will shine. Because Sam says so. And when it comes right down to it, light is light, no matter who makes it so. No matter for whom.

And there is light. And it is good. Heaven’s not the only land weeping.


I know it's short, but please to be commenting anyway. I iz vewy saadddd. (Don't ever watch Brokeback Mountain for the first time when you're alone at three a.m.)

Comments

[leighm.livejournal.com]

Beautiful.

OH BOYS:)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie. *smish*

[flightsofangels.livejournal.com]

I don't know whether to shiver or be gleeful, so I shall shiver gleefully! It's sweet and happy and yet ominous with Sam's power which is just... amazing of you to capture in so few words. Awesome stuff, hon!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'd like to know what I was thinking when I wrote this, but alas, it eludes me, haha. But I know what I'd do it I had all the power of the AntiChrist and Dean. LOL. *huggles*

[laceandgrace.livejournal.com]

Achingly beautiful, my darling.

Heaven might weep around them, but as long as Dean looks at him like this, all grace, and wonder, and alive, the sun will shine. Because Sam says so. And when it comes right down to it, light is light, no matter who makes it so. No matter for whom.

And there is light. And it is good. Heaven’s not the only land weeping.

So damn poetic. It's just gorgeous. ♥

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Wee! *tackles you to the ground and molests you with eskimo kisses* Thanks sweetie. I'm so glad you like it. I'm not a fan of Sam going evil, but then, I am a big fan of Dean not going to hell. LOL. Sometimes my brain gets desperate and makes some interesting little compromises. You're too sweet.

Tracy

[ejayye.livejournal.com]

I ADORE the last line.
Beautiful!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much sweetie! ♥s you.

[woodstarling.livejournal.com]

Oh that was goddamn beautiful. So poetic and antichrist!Sam!! Eee!!!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks darlin'. I'm a firm believer that love conquers all, tames even the antichrist, I guess. Hee! Glad you liked it. *smish*

[tigriswolf]

Aww, this just feels happy.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Yes, I thought so, too. lolz. Any fic where they're together and not dead is happy to me. Screw the rest of civilization. Hee!

And you wouldn't happen to know who tagged my fics, now, would you?*shifty eyes*

[9thof9.livejournal.com]

So yeah, that would have been a head scratcher for me if you hadn't told me that it was evil!Sam. Stuff like that is why your in my "grad school writer" section.

I esp loved the part about Dean controlling the rain when they went under an over pass.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

I'm embarrassed to say that I was in grad school the first time someone used the rain control trick on me, and I honestly didn't catch on until she mentioned it herself. There just weren't a lot of overpasses around to drive under when I was a kid. I guess I missed out on something. LOL.

Thanks so much for reading, sweetie.

[chevywinchester.livejournal.com]

That right there was lovely. I've got this thing. . .I know it's weird 'n all but I just can't stand the idea of Dean going to Hell. Crazy, I know. Probably because everyone who really understands these characters knows that Sammy would go insanedarkdestroy if it actually happened. So yeah, that was a lovely view of the boys, I approve. I love the lightheartedness of Sammy watching Dean at a ritual he's done forever. . .it was like they moved back to their lives with seemingly only a greater appreciation for each other (especially Sammy for Dean). I needed that too, so thanks!



And ya gotta be careful of BBM. . .that ending was a sucker punch for me and I didn't watch it in the same circumstance that you did! Why no happy ending for Jack and Ennis, huh? WHY!?!?!?!? *deep breath* I like to live in Denialland when it comes to that movie because I too must have a happy ending.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Yay! Thank you. Yes, my hugest kink is Sam who'd do anything for Dean. Makes me all melty and gooey.


And damn that movie. I feel compelled to write extremely angsty fic now just so I can fix it. *sob*

[glimmerella.livejournal.com]

Aw, you poor thing. (comfort). Great stuff.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And your icons always make me glee.

[lucywiggin.livejournal.com]

Love this! Did you post it over at the sammessiah community? They'd love to have it!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And because you asked, I posted it over there. *smishes*

[alchemie.livejournal.com]

I really enjoyed this...and the last line is a killer.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you. That last line...erk...took me forever to think of the right way to say what I wanted to say without flat out telling people exactly what was going on. I'm so glad you liked it. *huggles*

[runedgirl.livejournal.com]

Beautiful imagery here. I adore fics that posit Sam's love for Dean (and vice versa) transcending absolutely everything. Just gets me, right here. :)
I hear you about seeing BBM for the first time, and I luckily didn't see it alone!
Hugs,
Lynsey

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Hee! Exactly! I've found myself dragging my feet for ages on the whole bad!Sam, AntiChrist!Sam mytharc, because there are so many ways it could go that I just hate and so many ways for Dean to end up just a pawn. Then, this little idea hit me, and I was like..hmmm. So long as they're together and not dead, to hell with the rest of the world, I'm okay with the rest. lol.

And that movie will never be watched again. I'm not feeling the need to write something really angsty just so I can fix it. *my heart bleeds*

[tabaqui]

Heaven might weep around them, but as long as Dean looks at him like this, all grace, and wonder, and alive, the sun will shine. Because Sam says so.
*sniffle*

Oh, lovely.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *smish*

[sophie-448.livejournal.com]

Aww, I love it!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And no matter how hard I look. I cannot figure out what your icon is supposed to be. LOL.

[feather-touch.livejournal.com]

AAwww..........is so sweet...I love it!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you darlin'. *hugs*

[calijirl5150.livejournal.com]

That was simply beautiful :D

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much, sweetie. *Mwah!*

[sadelyrate.livejournal.com]

And there is light. And it is good. Heaven’s not the only land weeping.

That's a killer line to end this short, delightful ficlet.

And it's so easy to see this... Dean working on the car, lavishing it with love, Sam watching him. Sam always watching, his own little sexual aberration...

Thank you for sharing this!
*hugs*

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much, Darlin'. That means a lot! I'm always afraid of the dark!Sam story lines, because I NEED the happy ending. This was the first time an idea came to me that made me smile a little. So glad you liked it.

And I SO wish I had not watched Brokeback Mountain, because now everytime I think of the boys I imagine them alone and miserable for the rest of their lives, and it just...erk, y'know there's a reason I cannot read death!fic. *headdesk*

[suonguyen.livejournal.com]

Wonderfully written, short and sweet. Very enjoyable

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. Even the Antichrist must have his Achilles heel, right? I know Dean's mine, lol. So glad you liked it..and I kinda have a thing for your icon...*g*

[apieceofcake.livejournal.com]

Oh boys! What they wouldn't do for each other!

Beautiful Tracy, thank you :-)

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Jo! *smish* and Happy New Year!

[wendy.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh, that is gorgeous imagery and I really love Sam giving Dean the gift of sunshine so Dean can do something he loves.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie. Your icon...*g* Yeah, that's the face that tames the Antichrist, right there. *meltymeltmelt*

[thehighwaywoman.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhhhhh. I want to cuddle this fic to me. I love the quietness and the imagery -- takes me right there. Wonderful!

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, my dear. Happy, happy New Year!

[tazzles.livejournal.com]

Awwwww. *sniffs* Beautiful.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! With these boys for inspiration, the beauty is kinda a given, yes? So glad you liked. And your icon...*g*

[pushkin666.livejournal.com]

I absolutely love this and the feeling between the two of them. I know you said you've dragged your heels on the whole anti-christ Sam thing but would you mind awfully if I recc'd this at evilsam_spn. We have, evil, possessed and just plain bad Sam, but I'm partial to stories where Dean is clearly the most important thing to him.

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

LOL! Who am I to turn down a rec? And I can't dislike any Sam that loves Dean. Haha. Thank you. I 'm glad you like it. *big smishes for you*

[ssauei-ssui.livejournal.com]

Lovely. I don't really know what else to say... just wonderful job.

[veniveni.livejournal.com]

This is so pure and sad and calm. *weeps* Thank you!