This was so excellent. The different parts of Dean all coming out and how he never really had anyone to lean non even though John was right there.
"Dean knows he wants them to feel safe. He knows Daddy doesn’t feel safe. Not ever."

I love how Dean's faith in something just won't go away. If it had he wouldn't keep being surprised. The twisted thing is that if Dean gave up hope and faith then his heart would never be able to be broken again, but it will never happen.

You're writing was fabulous, and I love how you looped the ending around to touch the beginning.